this lj is almost never updated. so if there're still people out there who still come back and check for updates, your long long long wait is over. haha.

many things happened recently, but too many to mention. or perhaps i'm just used to bottling things up. well. i'm certain of what i want in life, but things never seem to go my way. it's like, there can be this most perfect thing which happened to me in my life, but everything that happens between me and this perfect thing, is nothing but perfect. some times i feel that i'm trying too hard. i guess i'm really out of 'gas' ready.

many people have the wrong perception of me.
well. i can be the greatest asshole if u're one to me.
i can find ways to screw up your life if u ever tried screwing mine.
put simply, if u're cunning, i can be more cunning.
if u're sly, i can be more sly.
that's when u'd wish our paths never crossed.
so this is to all who thinks i'm mr nice guy.

and to those who thinks i'm an asshole, u MIGHT be right.
afterall, like i said, if u're one to me, i'll be one to u too.
i've always gone the extra mile for people, but i dont need them to know.
i dont wanna elaborate, but people, please start to appreciate what others do for u.

i've done my best, and i think i deserve more than i'm getting.
but i wont fight for it anymore.
if u want it, come get it.
it's time for u to fight for what u want.
i had my turn, now, it's yours.